Just Call Me Mother of the Year

Yesterday morning I took Maddie to the Dr. because we weren't sure whether or not she had pink eye and just wanted to be safe.  Turns out our little munchin has pink eye in both eyes, a double ear infection and a sinus infection.  Now, I'm not sure if the Dr. was trying to make me feel like a bad parent for not knowing all of this, or if that was just the guilt that overwhelmed me and made it seem that way.  At any rate, I feel like the worst Mom ever.  How did I not know that she was so sick??  She must have an extremely high tolerance for pain, because she hasn't complained at all and the Dr. said her little ears look like strawberries they are so red and irritated.  If anything she's been a little clingy and cranky - but that's it.  I'm just glad that we went to the Dr. yesterday so that she will hopefully be feeling much better by Christmas.  I don't want her to miss out on one single solitary ounce of fun on Christmas morning!

In other news, I'm sure that Santa is finding a new home for any presents that he had designated for me.  In their place, I got one big huge helping of guilt - minus the bow and all.

Hold On Tight

Tonight we are taking Madeline to have her 9 month pictures taken and I can hardly wrap the notion that she is already 9 months around my head or my heart.  This morning I was looking at Laura's website and I clicked on the month of March and found Maddie's first photos at 7 days old.  It seems so surreal. Can it be that the same tiny sweet baby in those pictures is the same fightsy little nugget that took 8-9 steps this morning - walking from my arms into her Daddy's?  Time is not just passing us by it is flying and it's all I can do to hold onto each moment. At time, I feel like I'm in a race running just trying to keep up with her. Every morning I hug her tight and tell her that I can't wait to see her at the end of the day, but in my heart I really just want time to stop so that I can linger in the moment for say, uhm, forever.